DIE EMPTY

I was blessed to have been raised by a champion who emphasized the words in the picture. 

My dad knew that his life was brief and that he had to impart all that he was into me . He had tried to multiple his faith in Christ in all the people he encountered.  His mission was to instill  virtue into everyone .

If this be my last engagement with you then it has to be the best of my inner most potential and nothing less. 

We have the potential to outdo our limitations . We have the courage to subdue our fears . We have an unlimited capacity to love unconditionally.  We have the power to overpower the enemy . All this we can do in Jesus Christ. 

Jesus was just 33 when he resurrected from a complete mission on earth . It took 29 years of His life in humility to live and understand the human race to only impact it massively in just 3 years . He didn't have the means of technology we have today but He Maximized what was available . It's over 2000 years now and there are countless books written about Him . 

Me and you have the advantage to reach out to millions of people by just a click . 

What's keeping you from spreading your wings ? Why are you postponing the living hope that you are. 

Don't be impressed with yesterday's results and leave today's passion unattended.  Wake up sleeping giant. We are not here forever . 

Die empty ...  

What does it mean to be a YOUTH?

Youth can refer to age or a period in one’s life . Allow me to refine the
term “YOUTH”.

Y– Yield
Bring forth all that God has placed in you for His purpose with your
life . We are very exceptional eternal beings existing on earth for a
reason we must inquire about , for a season we must strive and thrive
to fulfilling live out our assignments .
You also possess the ability to incubate. You produce what is given to
you , what you select from your surrounding and from suggesting
spirits in your mind.

“ You are an answer to a question God knew your generation would ask”. — Myles Munroe 

O-Obedience

Obedience to God’s word requires a repentant heart and a renewed
mind in the Word of God . Obedience in all aspect can’t be without
discipline . In obeying and honouring our natural and spiritual par-
ents, we honour God . In obeying God’s Word , we express love to
God , to others and ourselves .
Remember that God is reactive . He will reward and honour your obe-
dience .We have seen radical and proactive obedience to God turn a
sheep boy into a King and a ordinary virgin into a mother of nations.

Disobedience like obedience has its price and consequences . Obedi-
ence gives you everything God has but disobedience gives you all you
have which is frankly nothing.

U – Utilization
God was careful to equip you with gifts that will edify His Church . You
are vessel of infinite wonders .The sole purpose of your gifts and tal-
ents is to serve God as you serve His Church — you are a steward .

You are entrusted to express God on earth as you serve with your gifts
and talents . There are many gifts and all of them require practice as
you fellowship with the Holy Spirit.
The sabotage comes when you allow pride into your heart that you
will fail to concord with those off similar gifts to yours. Being gifted is
not enough without humility . Humility brings forth a submission to
one another to enable impactful harmony .Humility is not just a meek
gesture portrayed to certain individuals but rather to all men . Seeing
God in everyone will standardize your worship and enlarge your terri-
tory of operation . Serving from a heart filled with pride is mediocre.

It is not about the quality of the offering brought to the altar 

but rather the kind of heart that offers it . 

Your attitude should be to complement and compliment one another
than to compete with one another . Refrain from imitating ungodly
examples from older believers . Pursue excellence in your service
delivery . Embed love in everything you do . Exploit your best as raise
others up.

T—Teach
A teachable spirit is evidence in the absence of pride and arrogance.
Leaders are learners before they are lovers.

“We can teach from experience but we can’t teach experience”.- Unknown 

Enthusiasm is not good alone . It must be given a help-mate called
“Enrichment”. When you are taught , you will need some extra time to
gain Insight and Foresight who are cousins of Understanding and
Knowledge.

Be a God-fearing YOUTH :

Yield godliness because God is in you.
Obedience is your wealth.
Utilize your gifts and talents in much
love.
Teach what you have learnt and
applied.
Help from the heart , the rest is
peaceful .

"A rand or a smile"

"A rand or a smile" ,  the words written on a burger's plak card . Those words got to me .

Even if you don't give him money atleast show him a gesture of happiness.  If he can have either of them or even both of them from you - you would have made his world better .

It doesn't help us to be consumed by our own problems when there is a world that just needs us to radiate the joy that God gives us every morning.

You may have alot of money , cars ,premises and businesses and yet be cluttered with frustration only because you have nobody expect yourself to share them with.  Wealth becomes a nuisance when it eats up its possessor's overall health . You will find it hard to relate to anybody expect yourself . You will begin to avoid others because they have needs that require your help which you aren't willing to give. Your world is tiny and your death is near. 

The trick is to never look down on anyone no matter how high the height you look  down at them from. 

Are you doing good for yourself?  Good !
Who are you helping to become like you ?  Though question right ?  Nobody handed you anything so much that you had to work your butt off right ?  Why translate a n unkind initiation ?  People are going to take advantage of me right ? Why not give unendingly because you will have unendingly ?

People are altars to serve God.  It doesn't matter if they good or bad people - burning that sacrifice.  In burning your sacrifice; mind the kind of heart you do it from otherwise you are playing .

A rand can be too much when you don't have it but a smile is everything when you are joyful and grateful .

What do you see ?

A thought provoking message came as a reminder from Pastor At Boshoff that " What you look at the longest ultimately becomes the strongest" .

Are you looking at your problems more than God ? The negatives more than the positives ?  Why is your perspective on tragedy blurry ? Who is it that is speaking into your life ?

It takes one to make a decision to be down and out yet the opposite is also true . What requires my positivity , my hope , my faith and my love ? Life requires that otherwise it will be hell for you even when things are starting to shape up .

Darkness is depressing. Tradegy is a blow-out punch . Misfortune is a nightmare but steady faith in God is the light , the recovery and blissful dream in all that .

Regardless of the clutter - what do you see ? Of God ? Of yourself?  Of your church ? Of your family ? Then pray within God's will ,  pronouce it , prepare for it and produce it !

When a car is just the designer's blueprint , we tend to DOUBT whether is it going to make it to the showroom as a finished product ? Who will beat that  aluminium-steel according to the designer's measurements ? What engine will it have ? Who will buy it ?

Whether we believe it as a final product or not - the designer will build a prototype regardless. Why ? He saw it ! He believes in it ! And nothing can change his mind!

The dream and that vision from God you have is important.  It is been given to you by God for the sake of its accomplishment.  You are the only one entrusted to bring it to pass .

If you make the dream much more stronger before your eyes than the God Almighty ; it's accomplishment will not serve the intended purpose.  God Almighty requires our full focus on Him for the fulfilment of all that He has entrusted to us.  Make God far visible than that dream or vision . Make God the only Enabler to your destiny .

Remember to wipe your tears off , dry those eyes , chin up , tell the voices of the enemy to shut as you submit all that you are to God in Spirit and in Truth.

Hope for God's best and prepare for their worst . Take courage. See clearly .

"I can take another blow"

After losing my father , I was involved in an accident,  my businesses collapsed,  my health became critical and I was depressed to the point of death . Life seemed unfair . My situations seemed unique and God was portrayed as the ultimate enemy as the devil and I became close friends. 

I tried all I could to recover all that I had lost but nothing seemed to resurrect . Not even a sign of from mama Winnie came so much that even my new friend found nothing more to kill in me - I was empty and my grave was clear . Struggling to find words to fit my prepared orbituarty along side my life apology letter to my dearest mom and siblings as committing suicide was my earliest parole to the prison called life .

Understand that you will deserted by everyone you know, to many you will be a nuisance,  to your family , a burden and to your friends , a curse but remember that the Lord is closer than you think.

Don't ever bow before your misfortunes or troubles but rather worship Yaweh more in your hardships . You need faith muscles and those muscles don't come easy .

Sitting down one Sunday alone . I gave thought to how all the above had grown me , strengthened me and enlarged me . Amazed at the wisdom and knowledge I had gained from all the misfortunes of my life . From that that day I slept peaceful as I understood the God i served more audibly and began to wake up with a blessed spirit everyday.

 The storms of life are not to kill you but to train you to have solid faith and a loving heart no matter .  We are fortunate to have tragedy this small so much that we must be grateful . It could have been worse .

It is at this very moment without tears and a clear vision that you now realize "I can take another blow" - Bring it on Life!

Rejection - a stepping cornerstone

That "no" and  that "unfortunately" will always trigger negative vibes that make you feel unworthy, dumb and incompetent.  In a way we have all had our share of rejection but none of the rejections we had truly define us .

Here are my two types of rejection :

1. Manifesto - Rejection that takes place immediately at the time of inquiry or presentation .  Your proposal is rejected now , you are rejected now for that job and sometimes you are not given a chance to explain yourself.  Manifesto rejection happens when the prospect has a particular qualifying criteria - hidden expectations at times.

It is easy to react sabotageously when manifesto rejection occurs that's why you need to development emotional intelligence. You have every right to ask why didn't you succeed for that interviewed , why did she reject your proposal and why is your attitude towards me that bad ?

2. Latent rejection - rejection that happens after conditional acceptance either by an institution or by another person.

This kind of rejection has a habit of occurring unexpectedly. More like a sudden rejection.  Like being dumped by your partner of many years because you are unable to find work . Unpublished conditional acceptance brews latent rejection.

What matters on the aspect of rejection is the lessons you take from it. Your heart will be broken , your spirit will be crushed and you will face the temptation to give up on yourself. 

If your value is dictated by who or what accepts you then you haven't come to love yourself unconditionally .  Nobody will understand your value like you do. You need to be free from the cage of what other people will think of you to what God says you are .


Watch out for the amount of trust you put in a prospect lover.  Don't overdo it ! Hidden expectations are the cause of many hurts.  Set out the course before you sing " I love you too " . Give out your "Heart rules "


Actions that lead to rejection :

1. Impulsive agreements - Read the contracts carefully , there is always a trap in smooth talking. 
2. Infatuation - You can't sleep to lust and think that you will wake up to love.
3. Under-preparation - Don't despise your opponent .
4. Unrealistic expectations - Avoid expecting a pig that doesn't love mud.  Know their level of commitment.  If you can work with it , great ! And If you can't,  let them go !
5. Over-confidence - Don't be foolish.  Pride is contagious,  arrogance is a nuisance but humility is a darling. 

That opportunity might have been important.  Important only if it accepted you otherwise consider it as preparatory. Prepare for another one . Sharpen yourself . Grow from every rejection. 

If you are moving in the direction of your dreams not life demands - every rejection will be your cornerstone. Go in to try always .

If you fear rejection either from people or that opportunity - you will forever be mediocre.  The hurt of rejection isn't much painful compared to a mediocre life . You will never do anything great and extraordinary while you are making love to your fear of rejection.

That dream woman won't pursue herself,  that dream won't fulfill itself and that opportunity won't find itself - you must be willing to see rejection from a growth perspective .

Remember that your steps are ordered by the Lord therefore acknowledge Him in all that you do . Remember not to grugde over people that reject you. They are ushers to the alignment of God's purpose with your life .

Understanding your worth !

A dear mentor of mine Pastor Harry Mashego shared a great parable on a mother's day Sunday : 

A father gave his son a beautiful stone . He then instructed the boy to raise two of his fingers every time a prospect buyer asked how much it would cost . 

Day 1 - He went to a local pawn shop .He raised two fingers When asked how much he wanted for the stone . The cashier answered ,"R2 , that's cheap ,I will take it  " . The boy smiled and ran back to his father . He told his father what was offered to him . His father then sent him to go sell the stone at the museum the next day . 

Day 2 

The boy met a historian who was interested in the stone so much that he asked ,"how much? The boy raised two fingers again  . The historian answered " R200 000 , thats cheap ,I will take it " . The boy smiled and ran back to his father.  He told his father what was offered to him. His father then sent to a gemstone prospector the next day . 

Day 3 

The boy met the gemstone prospector who had much interest in the stone the boy had that he asked the boy how much he wanted for it. The boy raised two fingers again in response.  The prospector answered " 2 billion rand you say then I will take it" . The boy smiled and ran back to his father to tell him how much was being offered. 

My lesson from this is : 

What you have to offer will vary in price depending on the mental receptiveness of those you are selling your solutions to in business. A dog will buy fish for less than anything but a cat will buy fish for everything.  

It is not easy to get people at a ground level mentality to buy what they think tbey should be getting for free but if you are willing to not settle for less because you know that you are the best then you are on the right path.  There is always temptation to under-sell yourself especially if you allow your circumstances and environment to condition everything that you are. 

You need to spend time with people who understand your value , who will endorse your value and be prepared to do exactly what you require from others to others again. 

Somebody out there is looking for the uniqueness of what you carry . The only way to find that group of people is to first understand your value , increase it daily in your habitual routine,  capitalize on volunteering because that's part of your preparation,  keep a humble attitude and continually devote yourself to God Almighty. 

Just like the boy who endlessly continued to inquire of his father so should we . We inquire before and after the victory to avoid having conditional submission . 

As he obeyed his father's instructions , the value of what he carried increased.  Even with the increasing value. He came back home.  The boy was grounded. 

Don't be afraid to reject offers that don't serve your value right unless there is a preparatory directive from the Almighty .

Decisions - exclusively inclusive

It is said that , “ We make our choic-

es and at the end our choices make

us”. Not only do our choices make

us , but they make others too.

Every person on earth has the ca-

pacity and capability to have an

effect on the behavior and develop-

ment of another. Relationships are

the conveyor belts of influence ,

attitudes and beliefs.

All of us are agents of what attracts

us — good or bad . We must com-

prehend that our actions are from

our decisions and our decisions are

from our meditation , our medita-

tions are from suggestions by godly

and ungodly spirits. This now puts

you and me as kings and queens

that are constantly advised and

convinced to think and act a pre-

scribed way.

Your decisions have a good or bad

effect and affect on others and yourself.

Therefore your decisions translate to

many generations , your decisions

transmit your character and your deci-

sions expose the kingdom you repre-

sent.

Your decisions are only personal for a

short time . Your manner of life will ex-

pose your decisions.

My decision to pursue purity in all its

fullness has already positively impacted

the youth around me. Furthermore, it is

not enough to decide once ; you must

feed your decision by exposing your

sight and ears to material that build-up

and arouse your conviction to your love-

decision. In order to learn , to love and

to lead like the Lord Jesus Christ . We

must decide to learn what He learnt, to

love what loved and at the end of the

day ; we are leading like Him.

Suicide - The poem

I am suicide
The son of Guilt
And Depression
I live in low self-esteem
Where mockery evolves
I go to a school called
Destructive criticism
My teachers are Mrs. Obesity
And Mr. Thin Slick
Here the rich and the poor
Share the same fate
Alcohol helps us to forget
Our miseries
Drugs take us up to into
Short rest
Church tries to encourage us
To live in faith
Good and bad children
Quiet and talkative

Loved and those unloved
Think about me
Yes! Me Suicide
In situations that
Labor depression
From a guilty conscious
I emerge
I prey on broken hearts
Top celebrities
Known politicians
Rich rollers
Never ignore me
In fearful and
Hopeless times
Yet without doubt
I am a hell-breed
Call me a condition,
A situation, an event
Even a thought

I am ready to sell
You death
With a unlimited warranty
Of tormenting hell.

The place of waiting

One cold Sunday I decided to prepare our coal stove at
home . I first inserted old news papers and dry pieces of
wood and lit both of them up . The mixture burnt so
well until I inserted a bucket of coal - silence broke. The
high raging fire seized . I was now worried .

I looked deeper into the stove to check for a spark only
to find nothing . I then went outside to check the chim-
ney and to my surprise - there was smoke . I decided to
leave the stove for some few minutes as the evidence of
smoke meant that something was burning . On my
doubtful return - I saw and heard sparks . Now i knew
completely that something was burning .


Sometimes in life like the stove with everything inside - we
take time to burn. Instant things are non-durable meaning
they are quick to finish .
Just because you have certain gifts , talents and a righteous
life doesn't mean you are ready yet for the great ministry you
are called for, even Jesus Christ though He was God lived
under the seasons of time .
Remember "There is a time for everything under the sun" .
Seasons are locked in time and time is already locked by
God's hands .

Acquisition doesn't equal character but Acquisition plus
God's affirmation multiplied by character equal complete
readiness . Wait for the gunshot on the track of your life's
purpose. As you wait - excel at and in the place of waiting.

C-H-R-I-S-T

Creditability lives in referential 

and continuous experience.

Humility exists in the ability to be willing to learn from the Lord, to 

live with the Lord and to love like the 

Lord in order lead like the Lord.

Relationship with God, others and yourself - where reflection, rectifi-

cation, reconciliation, repentance and restore occurs.

Influence reassurance tactful training/teaching, exemplary emphasis, 

momentum-building mentorship and interactive inspiration.

Sharing reinstates value, compatibility, capability 

and compassion.

Teaching integrates character, directs discipleship, unveils armour, 

fumes faith, excites expectation, disciplines desire and affirms mission.

Loving others unconditionally

There are people I never got to know because of what I heard, I thought
and began to say about them and there are people who never got to
know me because of what they heard, thought and began to say about
me. Neither of us are innocent. I was challenged as I sat alone in my
room by this thought that I began to introspect myself, to recall the exist-
ence of such people as I prepared to reconcile with them.
Jesus Christ remains my inspiration and teacher to understanding people.

It is through Him that I learnt that whatever treatment you desire from
others – you must be willing to initiate so much that my heart flooded
with the following words re-quoted, “You can give without loving but
you can’t love without giving”. Again Jesus teaches us to love without
limits and without favouritism. And this we will be able to do by
“Loving God with all our hearts and minds”. No man who loved God
treated others badly, no man who loved God embraced division over
unity and no man who loved God kept this love to himself for it is con-
tagious – like a flood that quenches the thirst of the earth so is the man
that devotes himself to God through the Word.

During the days of Christ’s ministry, spectators mocked Jesus for sitting
and eating with sinful men. It was their lack of understanding and
knowledge as why Jesus Christ had come. God didn’t judge and still
doesn’t judge like people. His sight is never short nor is His mercy misdi-
rected.

Until we as the body of Christ root in love; we will win less souls for this
is a matter of inside-out. We can’t bring souls into divisions; we must be
united in our minds and in our hearts regardless of what our church
names or who our founders are – Jesus Christ is enough to unite us.
Back to understanding people. We must individually understand that we
are at a position to influence others and that others are in a position to
influence others – we are much related. The message you send out will
bring results in. A message carried with consistent application never miss-
es the spot.


Speaking about Love is information but living in Love is total transfor-
mation. People never change until they decide to – why not be a phe-
nomenal influence to their decision by living in Love?

Your mercy not your judgement!

You will never get to see and experience the best of everybody you meet because all you do is cling to the gossip of who they were rather than who they are now.

Reference is good but when your referer is bitter towards the person at inquiry - that's your chance to be a unifier. 

Jesus knew all about the short tax collector who hung on a tree just to see Him . This short and cruel man as seen by others wasn't worthy of the Lord's presence especially in his home to feast . It wasn't any spoken sermon or prayer that changed him but rather the humble and forgiven attitude Jesus Christ portrayed as He dined in this short man's house. 

Friend , what if me and you stopped judging others based on their past  or present but rather on how God sees them - the best versions of themselves. 

It is difficult to do the above if your belief system about yourself is out of proportion in terms with God's grace and His righteousness. 

I will allow you to conclude on this yourself .

Vision 101

Vision is given by God and it is transferred via methods that God chooses to use. Imagination, daydreams, angelic visitations, night dreams, God-to-man encounters and through thoughts deposited in one’s heart.
You know a vision is from God because it edifies your spirit, it challenges your level of faith and it is completely rooted in love.

Leaders in all spheres need a vision from God because they are responsible for God’s people.
Why do leaders need a vision from God?
1. A vision from God has consistent instructions and direction.
2. A vision from God arouses the faith and trust of the leader in God.
3. A vision from God demands conviction and character.
4. A vision from God is timed by God when to finally manifest.
5. A vision from God complements and adapts to the culture of God’s kingdom.
The provision of the vision is within the Giver of the vision, everything on earth is God’s so fear no men and believe God without doubt.

God has equipped you and other enablers to tend and to keep the vi-sion.
Leaders can acquire visions from God if only they can ask and submit to our Father. Without faith, leaders will not experience the rest that comes with trusting God. Leaders will likely be intimidated by the vision if they don’t know God. Leaders will become weary from their own efforts in trying to carry out the vision given by God without God.

A vision is purposeful. A vision presents the end in the beginning. A vision is seasoned. A vision is edified by good counsel. A vision will in-trigue virtue. A vision will demand love to be its anchor.
When leaders make the vision given by God plain for all to see, the vision will become strong in the eyes and hearts of the leader and everybody entrusted to the leader. Therefore the ultimate desire will be for the manifestation of the vision.


THE VISION-CARRIER AND VISION-BEARER

One of the greatest setbacks to the fulfillment of a God-given and God-inspired visions is the enabled failure not to capture it.

Why is it important to write a God-given vision down?
1. To validate its manifestation.
2. To remind you of what God said would happen.
3. Even when you die prematurely; the vision will still stand.
4. To serve as a resource of direction to them who are entrusted to run with it.
5. To edify one’s faith and trust in the Almighty.
6. The vision in plain writing is a prophecy.
7. To bring comfort and closure

The vision-bearer is not necessarily the vision-carrier. The vision-bearer is instructed to write it down, make it plain on tablets understandably. This means that the vision bearer possess the ability to inscribe and is fa-miliar with the language of the people, he/she is equipped for this work.
The vision-carrier is given divine sight.

Everybody will see the vision but may not have the divine and entrusted sight of the carrier who has the speed and enthusiasm to run with the vision.
Though the vision given might seems too impossible, unattainable, unrealistic and too far-fetched. Add the virtue of patience to your faith for it is for an appointed time.

The vision-bearer is promised to see the manifestation of the vision like Moses who saw the land God promised to His people but didn’t enter it.

The bullet that kills the shooter

Mr Mampane , the deputy principal of Sofunda secondary school shared the following story :

 It was right after South Africa became a democratic country country which left most white-coloured folks in a pool of revolting hatred.
 A racist farmer entered a local pub with excitement until his eyes caught the presence of a black man sat near the counter that he boiled with anger. Bold and loud he said “bring beer for everyone expect for that black man”. The black man replied, "Thank you ". The white farmer got angrier and said, “Bring braai-vleis for everyone expect for that black man”. The black man again replied, "Thank you". It was now time for the white farmer to pay. He requested to meet the owner of the pub to make the transaction. Guess who was owner of the pub? That black man who kept on saying "Thank you”.


This is to testify that your hatred towards someone regardless of your reason for that hatred is rather working against you - a device that has turned to your harm instead. Hatred brews unforgiveness and unforgiveness will deprive you of your peace. Hatred doesn’t enable healthy relations in all spaces. It affects your perception and your attitude towards the person you hate.

The "PIT"- Purposefully Intended Training

When it is because of righteousness you are in a pit , the righteousness of God will serve you right in that pit .

Being demoted to the bottom is not a problem , it is a problem only when you are in the wrong with God . Being without God at the bottom will spark a great need for God and because of His loving nature , God will show up because He is also true to His Word. The pit gives you time to lick your wounds , to reconcile and to reconnect with God especially when unrighteousness is the reason you are down there . But when your reason for being in the pit is righteousness in God’s sight then you be redeemed in no time .

The purpose of the pit is to get you re-focused on God’s purpose for your life . It was within God’s purpose for Joseph to serve in Potiphar's house for a time. God’s ultimate purpose for Joseph was to have him serve beside Pharaoh . Here we see God’s setup . How an unfair practice allowed by God could be righteous in propelling God’s purpose for one’s life. The weapons fashioned against Joseph ,God converted to enablers to his destiny.

God prepares those he entrusts through tests , tests designed to focus them only on God in order to birth what is entrusted in them . The more Joseph was tried , the more he was pruned as he had been bearing fruits of the Spirit . If God didn’t expose Joseph to these tests , Joseph would not have known his capacity and capability bestowed in him by God.

Notice that in the midst of all that was happening to Joseph .He never questioned God but rather submitted to His will every time.

Surviving tragedy

I didn't see this coming to an extent that when it happened I thought that I was dreaming. 

I had the expectation that God would raise my dad up , that he would live to be a living testimony to others but God had His planned purpose.  A purpose at the time of occurrence I found selfish and very ignorant of a loving God . Spare me the senseless quoted scriptures that rubbed in more hate at Him. At that time I wanted nothing to do with God , wanted nothing to do with His Word and His works in me to some extent I almost burnt the books I had written in His name - I was at the brink of professing atheism. 

Fellowship with saints become a bore , sharing scripture become a burden and waking up to a new day was futile .

Until the day I came back to my senses that I turned to God. I spoke to Him ; Man to man - kept all honesty intacted .

"Though he wounds , he heals that very wound " ...

He cut me very deep I must say . My dad was not your ordinary title keeper . He played the part very well yet not without foul.  He fouled forward towards his own measure of excellence . All that he was set a great foundation for me. I was fathered well to an extent that I don't have my past to blame in how good or bad I will father my children. 

There is no better way to deal with grieve other than running back to He who wound you in the first place  . Off course there will be breakdowns now and then when you remember them but you must come to a point of accepting what you cannot change.

God our Father is there for you . You can trust His guidance. Allow His wind of comfort to dry your tears.  Feed Him your cares and He will dish out His best for your life in His purpose.